This is such a big one for me…I’m sitting with a conversation I had yesterday with someone I’m feeling out romantically and I can’t discern if what I’m feeling is patterned and from protection or touching on something true. Sometime that gap and discerning which side you’re leaning is SO elusive, and it’s so humbling and vulnerable feeling. The invitation is just to go slower, to not know yet, to grant myself time and the vulnerability of not having made a decision yet… this journey from my head down into my body is THE challenge for me, I feel…
Anna, the most important thing is that you are aware of it. As long as you are moving slowly and understand that you have no clarity, you will ultimately find your truth. Moving slow and being patient are qualities our society does not reward. Stay in the inquiry.
"This is the grace-filled work necessary to become someone whole." - I don't know why this little sentence moved me to tears. It contains so much. The Why - to become whole. The Work it takes to grow, slowly. Necessity - there is no other way. And the Grace without which nothing is possible - I can't "control" and "fix" my way forward. This is a diamond of a sentence. And I am thinking back to the years where my youngest child was expressing her pain in intense rage fits, just like you describe. And I was just sitting with her, holding her, loving her, letting her be who and how she was. These difficult moments didn't look like breakthroughs, they looked more like breakdowns. But it is exactly these moments that laid a foundation of deep and immovable trust between us that still pays dividends today.
This is such a big one for me…I’m sitting with a conversation I had yesterday with someone I’m feeling out romantically and I can’t discern if what I’m feeling is patterned and from protection or touching on something true. Sometime that gap and discerning which side you’re leaning is SO elusive, and it’s so humbling and vulnerable feeling. The invitation is just to go slower, to not know yet, to grant myself time and the vulnerability of not having made a decision yet… this journey from my head down into my body is THE challenge for me, I feel…
Anna, the most important thing is that you are aware of it. As long as you are moving slowly and understand that you have no clarity, you will ultimately find your truth. Moving slow and being patient are qualities our society does not reward. Stay in the inquiry.
"This is the grace-filled work necessary to become someone whole." - I don't know why this little sentence moved me to tears. It contains so much. The Why - to become whole. The Work it takes to grow, slowly. Necessity - there is no other way. And the Grace without which nothing is possible - I can't "control" and "fix" my way forward. This is a diamond of a sentence. And I am thinking back to the years where my youngest child was expressing her pain in intense rage fits, just like you describe. And I was just sitting with her, holding her, loving her, letting her be who and how she was. These difficult moments didn't look like breakthroughs, they looked more like breakdowns. But it is exactly these moments that laid a foundation of deep and immovable trust between us that still pays dividends today.